Lately I've been in a state of wanting to know exactly what my multi-faceted work life looks like while also caring for three girls eight and under. I definitely underestimate the value of my work as a mother, how much time and energy it takes to keep our household running, and the stress of having so many ideas and projects I want to work on but simply don't have the time. I'm learning to grow into this role of mother as my girls grow, each of them in different phases, each of them just the most wonderful, beautiful human beings. Knowing them and caring for them is such a gift. I fail them often, but they forgive like God's grace, and I think I learn more from them than they do from me. I think much of the stress and feelings of inadequacy come from comparison, and not shedding that thought process of 'she does that and so I should be able to do this' towards other female artists - which makes me so sad as I type it out. In my heart, I support every single one of these women I admire, whose work I follow, who are completely using their talents in such incredible ways... and I want to do that, but feel like I can't right now. I'm starting to see that this is more than okay - it's good, and right, and these days with my girls while they are small and still want me to spend time with them, and hold them, and give them my individual attention - these days are brief. I have this issue of holding myself to higher standards than I am capable of reaching, but the fact that my work trajectory has not been a direct, upward, straight line is actually not a sign of failure on my part. Rather it's a sign of rearranged priorities as the children grow and I am increasingly aware of the brevity of my time with them. I can't wait to see them in every phase as they grow and become who they were meant to be, and eventually the women they'll be. I think for now, I'll stay dedicated to my favorite collaborative project, the Seed & Plate - this photograph is from one of our recipe shoots - and working with community and positive contribution in mind. I'll be making a section of my site dedicated to my sewn and fiber art pieces for sale, and maybe making another instagram account that's more like my Pinterest in the sense that it's more aesthetically driven, sharing the work of myself and others, rather than basically micro-blogging with tons of selfies (shameless) which reflects my current account. Anyway, all of this is just as update on recent things. Hope all is well; sending love.